Trust

I am struggling with a trust issue. Not that I am having trouble trusting,(and yet perhaps I am), God seems to bring truth to light when I think I am looking at something entirely different. But no, this is an issue where someone does not trust me. It is funny how much this hurts me, how much it bothers me, how much I care. It is both that they don't trust, but also that niggling idea that perhaps I have earned this mistrust somehow. What is in my personality, my way of dealing with people that would give this perception? And is this perception true? Hmmm. This person is dear to my heart. And yet there is this mistrust. They don't trust me with knowledge of their comings and goings, of the silly and serious moments. I suppose you could say they don't trust me with their heart, and definitely not with their secrets.
Is this something that is justified? Am I untrustworthy. Do I even know how to trust? Do I trust God? Do I give him the secret things of my heart? Do I trust him when he answers me in ways I do not like? How about when He wants to get into my "business"? Perhaps I am not trusted because I don't yet know how to trust. I admit I sometimes do not keep things to myself that I should. This is something I hate about myself and am working on with God's help.
And so back to my original problem, the hurt and pain of mistrust aimed at me. What do I do with that? I write about it trying to get a handle on it. Why does it hurt so much? Why am I so bothered by it, and what if anything can I do about it? I have spoken to this one whom I love. I have no answer. Lord deepen my trust of You. Deepen my faith. Make me a person who can be trusted. Trusted by You.